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ahh it's time! in less than 10 hours i will be making my new life at penn.

it finally hit me today that i'm going to college. obviously i knew i was going and all my friends have already been there, but today it finally sank in while i was watching tv and bumming around that life is going to be different from now on. i'm entering a new phase in my life, at the threshold of a new chapter, etc. etc. i can't believe it's finally here and ready or not, it's going to happen. i hope i'm ready.

i meant to type something really long and meaningful to all my friends but never got around to doing it. besides, everyone's already gone and it just seems belated, but here's the abbreviated version anyway. to all my friends, and you know who you are, thank you so much for everything. you are all amazing and i can't emphasize enough how much you mean to me. i couldn't have gotten through these past few years without you guys and i truly mean it.i wish you the best of luck because you deserve the best and nothing less. thanks for love, laughs, jokes, memories, lazy days, crazy nights, and everything in between. i love you all!

and so, it is time to say goodbye to wayne and hello to philadelphia. goodbye to everything that's so familiar to me and hello to everything's that not (oh jeez cici get a grip and stop being so melodramatic). but of course before i leave, the standard college info so that anyone can stalk me. send me love at:

3700 Spruce Street
Box 1727
Philadelphia, PA 19104

email: qczheng@sas.upenn.edu
AIM: ci2z
cell: 973-768-8392

this is my last entry on tackytourist4. check out bittersweet_c from now on. plus, i just added a whole shitload of pictures since i have premium.

au revoir mes amis,

cici

"Save Tonight"

Go on and close the curtains
'cause all we need is candlelight
You and me and the bottle of wine
gonna hold you tonight, oh yeah

Well, we know I'm going away
And how I wish, I wish it weren't so
so take this wine and drink with me
let's delay our misery...

Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone

There's a log on the fire
and it burns like me for you
Tomorrow comes with one desire..
to take me away, it's true

It ain't easy to say goodbye
darling please don't start to cry
'cause boy you know I've got to go
and Lord I wish it wasn't so

Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone

Tomorrow comes to take me away
I wish that I, that I could stay
but girl you know I've got to go, oh
and Lord I wish it wasn't so

Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Tomorrow I'll be gone

That song pretty much sums up night last night... god i'm gonna miss him so much.

summer's ending.

in exactly one week from today, i will be sitting in a dorm in philly, maybe typing up a new xanga entry on a new xanga username from a new setting. i really can't believe it's almost time to leave. to my friends that have already left or are about to, i miss you already.

these past few days of prepping for college have left me cleaning out a lot of junk and buying a whole bunch of new junk. i have a new life ahead of me but i'll never forget the old. today i went through my buddy list for ci2z and i jumped into hardcore editor mode- i had to be tough and cut out about 50 screennames of people that i don't talk to anymore, or haven't talked to in a while, so i can make room for people that i will meet at penn. some were govies that i haven't talked to since gspi, others were old screen names that aren't in use, and most were people from valley that i haven't spoken to in such a long time and don't know if i ever will again. i wrote down the sn's and when i get a chance, i'll add them to another buddy list that i don't use as much so that i won't lose touch forever, but it was kind of sad and almost cruel just deleting names left and right like i'm deleting them out of my life because truthfully, i probably wouldn't keep in touch with them anyway if it weren't for the internet. so if i haven't talked to you in a while, but u'd still like to keep in touch, drop me an IM- ci2z.

and while i'm on roll with this whole out with the old, in with the new, meet bittersweet_c, my new xanga. tackytourist4 has been such a faithful xanga to me for the past 2.5 years but it's time to move on and i needed a change. i'm going to start writing in it once i get to penn, so bid your goodbyes to tackytourist and if u'd like to hear what's going on in my life once i get to penn, add bittersweet_c.

this night has been too fucking emotional for me.

first i had to say goodbye to my bestest friend in the whole world, gee won, who is leaving for friggin' indiana tomorrow. g1 i love you and you'll be great.

then just when i thought i had cried out all my tears, i found out some terrible news. someone that i knew from my penn pre-college days in the summer of 2002, eric shiue, passed away on tuesday. apparently he drowned in a lake.. he was only 20 years old. i hadn't talked to eric in a long time, maybe over a year, but you never think about these things you know? you always assume that people are there for you and that you can always catch up whenever u feel like it. i had the biggest crush on eric that summer and then i remember being pissed at him because i thought he acted like a jerk to me but then i got over it and we were chill. i can't believe he's dead. it's so final i can't even get over it. no one close to me has ever died. i cried so hard that i can't even think straight right now. i really just can't believe it. i'm in shock. it really makes u realize what's important in life and what's not. family, friends, life- that's what is important.

RIP Eric Shiue 8/3/84 - 8/16/04